Champagne Supernova.

SUPZX.

I'm dead beat, swear.
Okay rewind rewind, we start with Tuesday.
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Tuesday was Sengkang swimming and Decoration shopping in Ikea with Faiii (:
You love me right Fai, I know.

Wednesday, hit Parkway with Anisa, Fai and Ernie. OMFG YOU SHOULD SEE ANISA WHEN SHE PUTS ON HER BLACK CONTACTS- SHE LOOKS LIKE A HAMSTER CUM INSECT CUM ALIEN CREATURE THINGY I SWEAR HAHA. Me, Fai and Ernie laughed for 10 minutes straight(:

Thursday, last minute food shopping with Fai, Amira, Brenda and Wesley.

Friday finally came. Which means... HALLOWEEN PARTY BABY.
I think I invited everyone on my list that weren't taking O's.
Rushed to Brenda's. Set up the pit and bought some more food. Yes, Me, Anisa, Aidah, Ernie and Brenda had to buy food in our costumes.
Should've seen everybody's epic reaction when they saw us manzx. Just imagine seeing Cleopatra, Bloody Mary, The Grudge, Playboy Bunny(Ernie the thought of your bunny tail tickles me) and a vampire walking along the road.
HAA.
People only started coming at like 6. Tsk, fashionably late my hind foot.
It rained halfway so we BBQed in the rain.
Thanks to Ms Grace Ng, our heroine, we managed to cook the food. WHAT WILL WE DO WITHOUT YOU, MS.NG?!
AND AND RIDZUAN TOO, AND ANISA AND FAI AND EVERYBODY ELSE WHO HELPED TO ROAST.
Instead of sulking around, we made full use of the rain- danced around in it, swam in it(yes with our costumes too) and had fun falling down due to it.
Thanks la you all, finish the lychee martini without me even though I bought the lychee-.-
ANYWAYS, IT WAS A TOTAL BLAST EVEN THOUGH EVERYONE'S OUTFIT WAS DESTROYED IN THE END. WOOHOO.
Pictures up next. Alot of pictures. Judging by the state of our outfits, I'm sure you can tell which was taken before the rain and after.

That's it for today folks!
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& Its raining. Again.
Idk if I can go Escape with Fai, Farid, Ridzuan and Vic-.-
DAMN YOU RAIN, COME AT A BETTER TIME WILL YA.

HAPPY FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY EVELYN AYU RAJ KOK CHUI LING ♥

Since I've promised that for every birthday I'm not with you I gotta do something special and cool for you,

and FedEx probably hates me since whatever stuff I try to send to Bali will get lost somewhere along the way, and I didn't really have much time to record and tidy up a video-

I'll give you a looong post, just for you, as a temporary alternative for a birthday card/letter and I'll give you your special birthday present once I reach Bali.

Not much, but here it goes babe;

p.s./to readers(if any), Im not updating today so I apologize if this is a bore for you. But heck ah, this is for Eve and nobody else(:

8 years ago, I met this unique girl- short but slim, bucktooth and centre parting(:D). I swear I hated your guts the first time you opened your mouth I dont know why, maybe because of freaking Karina (still cant believe how stupid we were), and it was so obvious you felt the same way too haha. But for some funny reason- be it cause we were in the same class, cause we had the same friends, cause it was fun to make you suffer or cause people loved to mix us up-for some funny reason, I always liked being around you. It was like 'I hate you, but life isn't life when you're not around'. Looking back, I would've never known that that annoying pest was going to be my best friend, my soul sister.

Now that silly small little girl transformed into this butterfly, with long wavy thick hair, gorgeous eyes and a unique exotic beauty. Damn, boys have to line up to get to you, like literally HAHA (Yes, Marlon Im sure you're nodding your head in agreement right now. Better take care of her or else you'll get to witness my knuckles up against your face(: ).

So as I was saying- Girl, we have been through a shitload those years. From love triangles *ehemehemBenjamin!ehemehem* to love squares *ehemehemYUUKI!ehemehem(yea you still owe me earrings, asswipe(: )* , from falling in love to falling hard out of love, first boyfriends to hardest breakups, family issues, deep dark secrets, being allies in bitch fights to enemies, bitchfights, more bitchfights, assholes, more more much more assholes, first auditions, detention, more detention, CRAAZY rumours and vandalisation and let us not forget that stupid crazy incident in last year's Halloween party. It really is just amazing how we got through everything, its almost like a miracle,I swear.

When I moved to Singapore, I really thought you guys would just forget me and that I really just had to restart my life here, but boy did you guys prove me wrong. Especially you. You helped me, cheered me up when things got rough, showed genuine concern and support. Through it all, you were there for me. You are my rock. Have always been and always will be.

And I will always be here for you. Remember what we planned, maid of honour in each other's weddings and you'll be my children's godmother. Haha. TIL' DEATH DO US PART.

LOVE YA GIRL, HOPE YOU HAD AN AWESOME 15th BIRTHDAY!

(Dudette, you're so late, the rest of us have been fifteen for aeons)

LOVE YOU MISS YOU WISH I WAS THERE!

Shit I'm like tearing, I miss you silly bitch ):

p.s/ my fam says Happy Birthday too and my mum's gonna get you sthg from Italy !

Therapy has taught me that its all your fault.

;Luv vitto for saying the right things at the right time.

I should be smart enough not to believe in anything you've ever said right?

Shouldn't care anymore since you don't. So, you can go.

Just go.

The Night Safari trip was DOPE.

Met Riri at Tamp inter around 7 and Syaqir drove and picked all of us up. We were pretty late already so we just went with the flow. Night Safari was packed man, I nearly died from claustrophobia. Haha. Oh the people who dressed up were freaking scary I swear. The stupid witch just had to scream at me when Ain was about to take the pic. I just realised Ain looks like Neta (: So after alot of screamings(I screamed like a baby) and near-to-death heartattacks, we visited the animals.

"Ey, you're the Frosties rightt"
"Take the shit home! I want the shit!! QUICKKK, SOUVENIRR!"
"Omg! The leopardd quicckkk take take!"
-.-+

By the time we finished it was like 11pm when my curfew was at 10. Reached home around 1130pm and the gate was locked. Jyeaahhh!

Yesterday decided to stay in with the hommies. Just realised I havent talked to them for 3 days, serious. Hectic life. So we rented DVDs and bought food. Stayed up til midnight watching a thriller movie, [Rec]. SO FUCKING SCAAARY. I was bloody breathless from screaming I swear. Everyone was just stunned and shocked, it was so funny. Haa. And then we watched Bride Wars, Bern was laughing at me cause I was crying. Thanks la bitch.

Today was very, heart-to-heart talkish. Yes! Everything's like 90% resolved already. And that'a HUUGE load off my chest. I really hope this'll be the last time we have to talk like this huh, Im kinda sick and tired of all the shit thats been happening. Love you all alot. (:

Then met Jake in Bugis. Watched Julie&Julia in Iluma. It was soo nicee. We both had the urge to cook by the end of the movie. No wait, he had the urge to cook, I had the urge to eat French food. Doodzx how gay can you be manzx! Haa Im kidding, dont wipe your mucus on my shirt you loser.

K, Bern is shouting at me to eat dinner and Po Kai is kicking on my chair. So I shall go eat dinner and continue our movie marathon. Next up, SHAKESPEARE IN LOVE!

I know I already posted for today but anw,

YES MY MSN VIDEO CALL THING FINALLY WORKS!

Video calling with Yuuki David Tonai was a riot with a healthy dose of inferno and a crazy amount of laughing fits.

'FUZZAYYEEE!'
'Heyy Yuu-- OHMYLORDD WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOUR HAIR!!'

'Fuzz I need to tell you something!!'
'What'
'OMG!'
'WHAT!'
'OMG!!'
'WHATTT!' *goes on and on*

Haha. He shaved his head bald. He looks exactly like the first time I saw him, except crazier and more pimp. Stupid black hat that you lost.

Look at how cute lil Joshua is! And look at how many surfboards he has man. There's even more on top. I dont even have one-.-

I have a bad bad baaad case of homesickness.

Where the hell do I even begin-

There's definitely been ups and down.

We start with the latter.

I am bloody screwed for exams, serious. Literally flunked half of it and the only subject I did super well for was only Lit. Hell.

And for that thing. I've poured out everything I could think of this week. It was never ever meant to be a big thing, never ever meant to be a stupid secret, never ever meant to be a huge facade. A lie. So please, stop avoiding this and just talk to me will you guys. I'm so sick and tired of everything, i'm beginning to find it amusing.

Things kept coming back. I've run out of ideas. I'm confused and helpless. But this is my comfort zone. For now, just let this, let me be.

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WELL I GUESS ITS TOO BAD TOO SAD. Done my part and I'll be alright.

On a much much much brighter note,

Went to Orchard to watch the YOG thingy in scape with Fai yesterday. Aidah was performing. And then we went shopping(again-.-). Ate dinner with aunt and unc plus Debz, Janz, James and Hengky. :D

OMG.

Tonight is Night Safari with Riri and the two buddies!(: Vain pot you.

OMGOMG.

Halloween party next Fridayyy.

Rayd-sue-anne(Ridzuan) I know you're reading this. Dont show up as a freaking firetruck! Cause Fai'll be ERP and then I have no one to go bohemian-ish with! Haha, gundi.

OMGOMGOMG.

Next week, two dudes from Russia(!) are staying over in our hostel for some exchange programme thingy. And we're supposed to plan an outing with them around toown. 'We' mainly being me since the rest are just plain lazyass losers-.- But i'm dragging everyone down.

OMFGOMFGOMFGOHMEHFUGGINGADS.

Me, Evelyn, Yuuki and Dai are most probably gonna hit Australiaa together this Decemberrrrr!!

Yuuki and Dai are already confirmed going. My aunt's gonna give birth in Perth so grandmapa wants me to come and help out. Eve' parents have been wanting her to go to Perth to visit her Aunt alone, now's the damn right time. Anw, our rents are just contemplating on the timing. Plus the four of us are already confirmed going to Aussie for atleast Uni, so we shall go and look out for skooolzx.

I dont wanna get my hopes up to high. But if we do go together, I'll just die and see the stairway to Kangaroo heaven. Jyeahh babyy.

Seriously cant wait for the holidays to come. Bali in around 2 more weeks. I need to escape from everything, really.

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Hi.
I screwed up my sciences BIGFATHUGEGINORMOUS TIME. Oh my deah luhhd, save ma soul. Mum is going to skin me alive. Hear that bxtchez, skin me.
SIGHH.
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Okay, at least I got to destress this weekend. Went crazy in Orchard Road with the girls. Seriously, I was carrying like what, 6 huge plastic bags filled with clothes, accesories and the magic. Now mum has TWO reasons to kill me. Great. Fai, I am never going shopping with you, EVER again.
And at least I have Italy to look forward to. And Big D's birthday when I hit Bali. But its in MBG so I need the peepz to help me sneak out. Shucks.

Stupid Jake. Because of him wanting retribution for killing his dreamland seconds, I couldn't sleep til 4am-.- Haa.

Anw, I am most probably going to Night Safari for two freaking nights. Friday night with Vic and the gang. Saturday night with Farid and the other gang. How cool, Riri you're paying for me. Heh heh.

YES HALLOWEEN PARTYYYYY. WE PARTY PARTYY AND IM COMING AS FREAKING CLEOPATRA, BABY! (:
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Stop it, Faustina, stop. Seriously, you are thiis close to becoming bipolar if you keep thinking.

Zen and vitto!

Eve, harry and sam!

Katya and Vitto.

Yuuki on his deathbed.

Me: "Omg eve! Is he dead yet?"

Eve: "yeah he is..no wait he's not... ohwait wait.."

*yuuki's head falls*

Eve: "Okay, now he's dead"

Da King is in da house!

Vitto Mosquito and Faustina Margharita.

I miss lil Santtiagoo , so cute. And he says he misses his Tinkerbell (me! haha)

Overdued photos from King&I! (:
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I'm otp with Ridzuan, he's so noisy. Loser-.-

Been out about in town with my family. Fun and tiring at the same time.

My cousins are here yo! Hahah, almost died screaming when I saw Clara.

Im so tired, I cant feel my legs.

I CANT WAIT FOR TMW MANZXZX. OMBFGZX!

Girlie girl shopping/movie outing in Orchard! With Fai, twins, Tenny, Brenda, her W and ridz say he wants to come and be my slave and carry all my stuff.

Jyeahhhh.

I'm gonna burn a big fat hole in my pocket tomorrow cause trust me, you have no idea how therapeutic shopping is.

I hate awkwardness.

Will we ever talk normally again?

For all its worth, Idk if its the same with you but-

I've never regretted knowing you.

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I made a Livejournal! Nyaha.

I'll put up the link once its completely done.

BUT I will not delete this blog. Too sentimental.

Plus, I might want to go back to blogging again. Hee.

Hung out with this crowd yesterday(plus Amira) -

Late for school, snuck in around 930 and didnt do much but slack. Haha.
Then everyone,except Fai cause she was sick): , came over after school to change. My goodness my house was like some jewellery shop, with everybody rummaging through my necklaces, bracelets and whatnot.
"Okay. Next year everybody comes here before Prom! Round up the accesories!"
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Then hit Orchard around 3. Brenda didnt come cause she had to meet her W. Watched Imagine That (ridonkulous shit), went crazy on all the sales, neoprints, food and everybody except me(naturally) got new piercings. I want! But mum'll skin me alive and disown me. Grr.

Headed back to Kembz around 9+pm. Had to wait for Bernadus Andrien Chandra so that we could walk home together, he needed to talk to me. 30minutes later, he finally arrived. In the end, we ventured around Kembangan. He told me what happened, that was some serious shit. Took us an hour to eventually realise that we have hell of a home to go back to.

I damn well know how you feel. Just remember what I told you. Its so wierd seeing you like this. What happened to the asshole-ish, annoying pest I regard as my brother?! Anw, Im here with two ears and a motor mouth (I got it from my momma! Haha.)

yesterday was interesting.
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Today, Farid was supposed to take me out but my family's in town!
Sorry Ririi. Another time yes?
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p.s./ I'm sorry I cant be as strong as I was last time. I'm working on it. Love you guys, i'm gald everything's better now.

xx

Tom: What happens when you fall in love?

Summer: You believe in that?

Tom: It's love, it's not Santa Clause.

-(500) Days Of Summer, ♥

Hellozx.

Marina Barrage didn't happen.

Me and Fai were down with freaking fever. Too bad, even though its just a stupid seawall-like dam thingy, it was probably the one and only time me and Fai would be bothered to go. Haha oh well, atleast I didnt have to sweat 3hours under the sun.

Yuuki:"You know when your face starts to blush, and you feel all warm inside and all fizzy and its ugh so, so...wierd. Have you ever had that feeling Fuz?"

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Me and Eve: "Oh my lord, FINALLY!"

Honeyy, you have grown so much its scary. I swear to goodness you should compare you now and then, bald hair and all. Haha. Im so freaking proud of you and so so absofuckinglutely happy that you finally found that person (: Goodness grace, yes! Finally! Someone can penetrate through that thick, impermeable cement wall that surrounds your ice box heart. (Jking luv hee) Hate to tell you this but, I told you so.

And yes as a matter of fact, I do know that feeling. I kinda miss it.

I cease to understand what goes through the brain of boys/men alike.

"You should turn Bi(sexual) like me! Carefree. And you can only be Bi now, because you'll have a reason- being in a girls' school and all." - anon.

Pshhhttttt. I wish it was that simple, (the other) F.

(okay this is a super duper long one. If it doesnt concern you, I dont think you should read it)

p.s./ to allofyou. After the party was over, I wanted to talk to you but after reading what you said, I dont know how to. Okay, now I seem like the selfish arrogant unapproachable bitch. But cant I just escape, take a breather. I never meant to distance away, really. Its just that we had stuffs to plan and have alot in common, so ofcourse we tend to talk more. But it really doesnt mean that I dont love you all okay. After all I went through, I know who was there for me. You guys, without you guys, I wouldnt have gotten anywhere. But she was one of em too. I just wanted to go do something new. Remember what I've said, cant you believe in that? Plus, you shouldnt fake it too. You're all fine infront of me, never brought up this thing and suddenly boom, it comes unexpected.

Im sorry if I havent really been there for you guys. Im sorry if I seem like I dont give a hoot. Truth is, I dont even KNOW WHERE THE EFF I've been. Okay, I dont. You know when I say Im fine? Im not. These past few days, everything I've been trying so hard to shove right at the back of my head, its just screaming to get out again. Its so hard you have no idea. I had to do things like planning the shit and like going out with more people and all just to distract me. How can I concentrate on something else when I'm having a fucking hard time concentrating on what I should do? Look, if you guys have come up with problems. You should tell me. If there's something you guys are going through, I'll try my best to help. Like with A., I did try my best to help. It wasnt much but I did try. You have problems but you kept mum, how would I know whats going on? I've lost people I care about, I dont want to lose no more. Talk to me, tell me straight, face-to-face. This isnt all, I cant think straight right now. Sorry.

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Im down with feverr. Sighhh.
Exams are done deal, I dont know what to concentrate on.
Alright atleast tomorrow's the field trip and the inter-class competition thingy. Jyeahh.
Im so lazy to even get myself to lie on the bed
But since a loser told me that "good things will happen if you move your ass", I shall.
I can use some good things, no matter how little. For now.

xx

p.s./ Im considering Livejournal, keep some things low profile for a little bit (:
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Baby, I sorely miss the vibrant gleam that's in your eyes
I'll write a song about it
And maybe if the melody's just right
I hope tonight it will find you
It will remind you
But what's holding me back is the thought of time we never had
My world's hanging by three words that I can't bear to say

When you hear this chorus
Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?
Do you hurt the way that I do?
After all this time you leave me broken
This song is every word I left unspoken
When you hear this, I'm hoping that you think of us
That you think of us
Baby, I told myself that I'll be fine but it's a lie
I don't want to talk about it
Memories, oh they cut like knives
Deep inside I'm falling
Baby, catch me if you can

-MaydayParade('S NEW ALBUM IS OUT!)

howthefckdoyoustopyrselfrmlvingsmeone?Idk how to,idontwanto.

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EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR, JOY OH JOYYYYYY.
HAHEEEEHOO!
IM FREEEE, IM FREEEE AS A BIRDD. JYEAHHH! BOOYEAHHHHH!
HEEHOOOOOTTT.
(: (: (: (: (:
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"Lets study together!" never works out.
For example-

Thursday was supposed to be studying in MPL with Fai and Amsyar.
But then the other dudes, Haaziq, Insyad and Gerald came. And then we saw Vic and Tessa. The only productive part of that day was surprisingly because of Vic the bimbo, finally decided to open our Bio textbooks at +7pm. Haha.

Friday was toot. Was supposed to be studying with Farid Riri(!) at the airport. But we took a little detour and ended up eating dinner in Simpang. And not to mention, my loser of a sister left her phone in the taxi. So I had to drag Riri all the way to Bedok Inter to pick it up.
Me: 'Excuse me, did anyone leave a blue Sony phone behind?'
Counter lady: 'no, no one left any phone behind'
Me: 'You mean no taxi driver-'
Lady:-cuts in- 'No, nobody left any taxi drivers either'
Farid: '...Omg! Hahaha.'
Thanks Riri, for Friday. Wish I could've said 'yes' or 'me too' but I can't. Cause I'll be a liar, a hypocrite, a betrayer. Not to mention a bitch too. YOU DA COOLEST xx(:

The weekend was supposed to be a day of formulas and chemistry at home with Bernadus. True
enough, we ended up in Parkway. Me going high on all the sales, Bern ending up having to carry all my stuff. And I'm telling you its not little. Hahah, good doggiee. Shopping with you is super fun. Yes, you're turning gay-er by the minute. As long as I'm around man, as long as I'm around. And Sunday, we all decided to rent DVDs, cried over The Notebook. *bawls*

Monday. Jake was supposed to be teaching me math in Starbucks. BUT, due to the pouring rain and the concentration of sugar and Caramel in Starbuck's Frappucino, we ended up giggling over Whose Line Is It Anyway and filling in stupid fluorescent post-its. Didnt even touch Math at all.

TODAYY WAS THE LAST DAY OF EXAMSS. ANDDDD-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AMSYAR BRUH! :D

(He was blowing the candle into my face just because I lied to him about today being Fai's farewell party. Tsk. It was a white lie right! Seriously cant believe you fell for it.)

HAHAA. So you have to be thankful bruh, for having such an awesome sister like meeee and awesome friends like Dan and Faii and an awesome girlfriend like Diyanaaa. Actually bothering to plan a surprise birthday party for you. You know how hard it was! Trying to act all emo while deep inside we were laughing our asses off. Especially with giggly actors such as Dan and Fai. Tsk.

Here's to a sweet 16 you'll never forget! (: Receiving a classic "YOU'VE JUST GOT PUNK'D" text(my idea know), forced to stand tall on your chair in the middle of Fish&Co. with strangers singing Happy Fishy Birthday to you. Pfft getting punk'd on your birthday. Thank goodness my bro's not so bright after all. Heehee. Im sorry dont give me the scary stare ):

Hi. Here's me, there's you. Look at me, I'm fine. And this is a facade.

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