Summer love on a gurney with a squeaky wheel.

Trainwreck

2010-08-23T17:08:00.002+08:00

hangyour-hello.blogspot.com is now officially a valuable vault of memories I wish to keep at the very back of my head and buried deep in my heart, so yes I've moooooooved.

http://dirtyphunk.tumblr.com/

I won't delete this blog because I'm waay too sentimental and waaaaay too mental itself, so seeya lates alligates.

And then there was nothing we could do.

2010-08-22T11:33:00.003+08:00

FINE. I finally made tumblr. Haha. God knows if I'll keep it alive.
Proper post when Tessa Tan Xi uploads the ridiculous photos.

My life is....

2010-08-20T20:59:00.001+08:00

currently pretty fucked.
I want to cry out everything that's been building up for the past few days, but there's no one I feel like crying to.
Being singled out and screamed at by Lopez with Fai today didn't fucking help. Not a single fucking bit.

Goodnight world.

Yokoyama ftw

2010-08-19T12:44:00.005+08:00

Sniplets of trying to get into Singfest yesterday when we tried to get into YOG, Massively-Grotesque Hair Day with so many oh-my-gaga sportsguys around, period cramps, salty hair and toes, Rachel's seductive public dancing on the breakwaters of East Coast Park, lousy taxi driver and nine shameless camwhores. You girls make for fun times.

CONGRATULATIONS NATASHA MICHIKO YOKOYAMA! LUVU4EVA.
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No time to blog lately.
Hiatus soon maybe?
x

City believers

2010-08-14T19:28:00.006+08:00

Thanks tumblr for spoiling Freddie's death for me, and thanks Nam for (almost) spoiling Cook's. I need to finish watching Skins!
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Remember how two years ago, we tried to squeeze Yuuki into that dress and then got chased out of Body&Soul cause nobody listened to me when I said size M was too small for a guy? Haha. Now listen to these next few words, and listen good

If you detect even an inkling of happiness, a tiny glimpse of love, a mere hint of contentment, for heaven's sake grab it and don't let go. Don't ever think twice.

You fall in love and it doesn't work it out, and you think it'll never happen again, but it does. Believe me, it does.

bitch

2010-08-14T18:16:00.004+08:00

Eh Moobz! I realised I didnt give you a card though the present's done! So here's my...uhh 4-paged virtual card for you(Yes, I don't care about the fact that my handwriting looks like a 5yo's there)! Happy birthday, you old apek/apeh/ape(? like monkey.)

x

Sweet pills.

2010-08-12T16:23:00.002+08:00

A boy challenged his girlfriend to ignore him completely for a day. No texts, no phone calls, no meeting up. No communication for a day. His girlfriend agreed and ignored him for the whole day. However, she didn’t know it was his last 24 hours left to live.

So the next day, he went to his house. She arrived to see her boyfriend in his coffin, and a note on top. It said, “You did it baby! Now can you do it every day?”

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For the next 5hours, you might just find me sobbing at the corner of my room.

Dear gravity, you've held me down in this starless city.

2010-08-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

“We live in this culture where everything is supposed to be so hip and so cool, and it’s not cool to love, and it’s not cool to take care of each other, and it’s not cool to stand up for ourselves. But you know what? Fuck all of that. I believe in love, and I believe that the only way that we are going to survive this fucking craziness that’s going on in our world today is if we just learn to look at love, turn our heads the other way from all the bullshit, and fucking love.”

Sometimes we forget.

Be Eve Fs (BFF. Geddit? Hah.)

2010-08-10T13:47:00.004+08:00

Hey bestie,
I love yesterday. Yesterday shall forever be our secret. Ours and ours only.
I'm glad I have someone like you to talk about the weirdest/most dont-you-ever-mention-the-word things with, half-cook wholewheat spaghettis and make our own scary sauce from scratch and embarrass ourselves at the gym.
Love you Silly x
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Ugh, Singapore today. Ugh. UGH.
(No offence to Singapore, I just dread school)
>:(

What happens when an elephant meets a bear and a kitty and starts chasing after ducks?

2010-08-08T17:29:00.012+08:00

BALI, BABY.

Friday night, went to Canggu Club cause Krishna wanted to meet Harry, Sam, Harley and Robbie but Harry forgot about him. Hahaha. So went to Mojo's instead and met Harry and Robbie. What happened to other two? EHEM,vainpots! Hee. Then to Sanur Festival and everyone was there. Why does everybody go to a festival but instead of looking at the performances and enjoying the loud music, ends up getting drunk at the beach? Meh. AND FLAPJAKS WAS THERE! FREE ICE CREAM(Y)
Evelyn slept over that night, we literally fell asleep talking/mumbling. Hahaha.
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Meet Peanut, my new little kitty cat. I found her rummaging through my dustbin, so I decided to pick her up and fed her. Why, aren't you just the cutest little thang?

what the duck?

Nobody was awake on Saturday morning, except us cause we're awesome, since everyone was suffering from a hangover so me and Eve decided to take a short beach walk. Somebody's duck got loose and before we knew it, everybody at the beach was trying to chase after the duck, including us. Haha, epic!
We were supposed to go out after that but I found out my uncle was down at the hospital for stroke. Visited him for awhile,and when everything was alright everyone went to Sanur Fest. Again.
Everybody was there. Again. Including my parents and my other relatives(?!) What is it with Beach Festivals bringing the whole of Bali together?
Stadium after that, and I fell sound asleep the second I hit the sack.
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Spent the day in grandma's and shopping tonight with mommaaaaa! Love you mummy, thanks for telling me all your High School secrets. See, now you can't blame me as much whenever I do something stupid and wreckless cause you did them too <3

FYEAHBABYYYYY

2010-08-05T18:05:00.002+08:00

(this pretty much summarises how i feel)
I love the fuzzy feeling you get when you know you're about to smell, feel, taste and embrace the arms of home.
x

Your face is gay

2010-08-04T18:36:00.002+08:00

Bali tomorrow!
Even though my ear infection is still killing me and I'm not really supposed to get water in my ear(especially sea water)-
I shall see you all on Friday night for the Echo Beach BBQ Party and the Sanur Beach Festival/Scarlett's house hangout/Waterbom on Saturday.
And helloooo, granny's shepherd's pie.
Fuck, Imma be a pig.

x

So my week/weekend went like this

2010-08-04T17:34:00.007+08:00

We should be Flea Market buddies (plus Aliya), hunt every Flea Market in Singapore and scavange for the prettiest things! Haha.
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Thanks for studying with me on Sunday, Moobz. Your mee very sedap. With any hope, you're smiling when you see this!
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Omfgomfgomfgomfgomfgomfgomfg guesswhatguesswhatguesswhat

WE GOT INTO SINGFEST!!!!!!!

For free!! Me and Vic are awhzum(Y) *screams*
After all that epic showcase of our dramatic talent, begging and pleading the two annoying ushers and stealing their supply of Fiji water, running around and hiding behind trees and bushes, a million and one red ant bites literally from head to toe, almost getting arrested by this evil policeman, climbing up and down a hill, getting laughed at by everyone who saw us(and didn't believe we would get in), climbing through barricades, and so on and so forth...WE MANAGED TO GET IN JUST IN TIME FOR TOKIO HOTEL AND KATY PERRY(and we heard Orianthi's and Wondergirl's voice) ♥♥♥
Bless those two people who lent us their wristbands.

Met many awesome people who were our partners in crime, and a group of us moshed together upfront. But there was this group of guys who didn't believe we could get in and then when they saw us inside: "Eh, those two girls got in! OMG GUYS THEY GOT IN! CONGRATZ!"
I even video recorded all our 7+ attempts to get into Singfest. EPIC(Y) I shall post it up soon.

Katy Perry was so damn hottt, and her vocals was beyond amazing. Tokio Hotel too, and their set was the best.
OH AND ME AND VIC WERE INTERVIEWED BY THIS HOT ANGMOH [V] CHANNEL VJ! ZOMFGAKFBOAFNzxzxpoafnfff, HE WAS LIKE HUGGING ME AND AIR-KISSED VIC. Hahaha. Hopefully, it doesnt get aired cause we looked like a mess. And we weren't supposed to be there, plus, Vic didnt have the wristband. Hah.So if you see us on [V] Channel, close your eyes k.

So here's photo evidence to those people who didn't believe we could get in and thought we would just be two losers sitting outside and taking pictures of the stage from the tiny holes on those barricades (ehemKARENehemhaha)

WOOHOOO! WOOHOO! WOOHOOOO!

The better days

2010-07-31T22:38:00.006+08:00

Apologies for my sudden disappearance. I havent had much time to blog and everything. A proper update on my weekend shall come soon.

How can I ever forget you girls.
How much thought and effort you've put in to make this day amazing was just...I'm speechless. You girls leave me speechless. From making us lick whipped cream off each other's muddy thighs/neck to chasing us around with waterguns on an open field blindfolded and screaming (I got shushed by some weird TKSS guy cause I was so loud:/ ) to scaring the shit out of us by dressing up like bloody ghosts- You are amazing. Honestly, this farewell was more than what I expected it to be.

And to my Sec4 Drama girlies, we've come so far. I don't even know where to begin. Four years of massive Videoworls bitching sessions, SYF stress and all. that. drama.
I love you girls for life, dont ever forget that.

x

The irony in you

2010-07-29T21:22:00.004+08:00

Bernadus, you're such a dick. ~~I hate you. Tell meeee!~~ Talk to me, fool!

Fai and Times made my day(Y)
We should study with Laura more often, its actually productive.
I wonder if tomorrow will happen.
My ear is literally killing me. Ugh.
Okay, I'm just writing anything that comes into my mind.
Goodnight all
x

Day 2- Your Crush

2010-07-29T18:29:00.002+08:00

(no that is obviously not him)

Dear Guy-i-took-nine-months-to-realise-was-so-ohmyfucking-cute,

Okay i feel stupid writing this but anytoots. I doubt you'll ever see this but even if you do, I doubt you'll ever know i'm talking about you.
Funny story actually. The first time i saw you, you were dressed as a clown, white and red makeup smeared all over your face, hair tossled messily all over your forehead. You were the guy all my friends would gush and blush and giggle over. I never thought you were cute a single bit. But that was before i saw your valley of a dimple(see i feel dumb writing this, especially now that I'm infront of the oh-so-annoying Faizah)

The good thing is, i know i'll never fall in love with you.
I'll never love you. And that's a good thing cause i know that painfully good-looking guys tend to break girls' hearts. Never loving you means that you'll never be able to hurt me. Crushes are safe but love is fuckin messy.
So kids, play safe! Hahah.
(Fai: "MEREPEK SEYY")

K, peace out everybody!(Y)

Day 1- Your Best friend

2010-07-28T16:08:00.007+08:00

Dear awesome,

It's amazing that no matter how much I get annoyed at your constant paranoia, how much you get irritated at me constantly being fed up with your constant paranoia, how much we've bitchtalked each other face-to-face, how oh-so-well we know each other's bad side(s), how much we can argue in a span of one hour- we still hold on to each other, and we hold on tight.

That's the thing you see, you know me so well. Too well, sometimes. From my worst to my best,you were never one to judge, you've accepted me for who I am. And I know you so well too. I know how much you love fruits on your yoghurt, I know how much you treasure the smallest things, I know how much you can't stand my maid's motor mouth, I know which shirt you'll wear over and over again for days, I know how much you hate worms, I know that when you used to like a guy you'd give your heart as a whole and never less, I know that you're a strong girl. You can face and embrace everything that's thrown at you. Because you're Evelyn. And Evelyn doesn't give up that easily. Evelyn has one of the strongest and biggest hearts I've ever known.

So here's to the times we fight and breakup and kiss and makeup,to the times we bitch about everything under the Sun for 5 hours non-stop, and to the times we go on our little motorbike trips to the top of Jimbaran hill just to scream out every a-hole's name for a sense of sadistic relief and to the times we'll sit on our wooden sofas, crying a river, with the one comforting the other and cursing whoever made the other cry. If I'm Serena, you're my Blair. If I'm Phineas, you're my Ferb. If I'm Betty, you're my Veronica. If I'm Demi, you're my Selena. Partners in crime forever baby!

Love you always, x.

Again.

2010-07-28T09:43:00.008+08:00

Pinky promise, never to study in town. Ever again.

Harley are you still drooling? Cause I am.
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I saw this in 5 blogs so far, the last time i saw this was in Laura(L)'s. I thought it might be fun, even though I doubt I'll manage to post every day. We'll see.

Day 1 - Your best friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 - Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

2010-07-27T15:14:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY THREE PRETTY GIRLS- EVE, NAD, LUCY! ITS BEEN 6YEARS);

I just HAD to put this in. I miss those whacky times. Water balloon fights, shark watergun fights, catching grasshoppers and bringing in ladybugs into class, falling into the muds of the rice paddy fields near school, running around the tiny soccer field carrying a water hose, slapping Zac's tummy and counting the times it vibrates. Haha. How can i ever forget. I still feel like I'm ten years old going on awesome, hah. We looked soo cute rightt! Except for me. I looked so ew.

Woohoo! Thanks Fai, love youu Faisu! Whatt only.

I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

2010-07-24T22:41:00.009+08:00

MEL'S PARTY AND ZANY PARADE. FRIDAY WAS THE BOMB!
We won Second for Zanyy (Y). So my two whole days' effort of staying up the whole night to sew mine and Fai's Egyptian costume actually paid off.

Hahahaha when we were singing Mel's birthday song-

(Everyone sings Happy Birthday in English and Mel's about to blow the candle)
"WAIT WAIT WAIT! EVERYBODY IN MALAY!"
(Everyone sings Selamat Hari Jadi and Mel's about to blow the candle again)
"WAIT WAIT WAIT WAITTT EVERYBODY SING IN CHINESE!"
(Everyone sings Selamat Ulang Tahun and Mel's about to blow the candles again)
"WAIT WAITTTTTTTTT!!!! EVERYONE SING IN TAMIL!"
(Everyone sings....somethingsomethingsomething and Mel's about to blow the candles again)
"WAIT WAIT WAITTTTTT!! EVERYBODY SING IN BALINESE!"
(This continues for sometime, Happy Birthday in 16 languages-including Spanish, Japanese, French, Tagalog, Italian, each ending with Mel just about to blow the candles but then interrupted and then finally, in the end-)
"WALAO STOP IT OR NOT! LET ME BLOW THE CANDLES CAN? 16 LANGUAGES ALREADY!"
"MEL, WHY YOU SO DEMANDING!"

Hahahahaha. Love you Melissa De Cotta, you suck ballz.

Mel's party was epic. With Guitar Heroes wars and epic SingStar wannabes(haha vic). Not to forget Rachel's game of "titititTIIII!!" and "chikaBOOMMM!". Dont know the game? Ask Rachel to explain, she'll gladly do it in the most animated way ever possible. Abs from laughing fits are guaranteed.

Shall post about today when Steph uploads the photos!
CHAO x

DREAM BIG

2010-07-22T20:24:00.005+08:00

This week's the week I found my long-lost one-day boypren, Ben Birgan(haha long story) along with my long-lost bestfriend when I was 10, Lucy Birgan. This week's the week I found out it takes $325 to fix my $450 camera(WHATHEFUCK). Its also the week I actually managed to actually design+create+finish two dresses in two days. Alone. That's right Fai, feel the guiltttt.

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I LOVE YOU GUIZE.
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So here's the greatest plan mankind has ever...planned-

When me and Evelyn are finally studying in Perth after JC and everybody has saved up enough moolahs, we'll go on a Bunbury roadtrip to pick Yuuki up. Then the three of us will fly all the way to Melbourne to hug and scream at and pick Nadia up. Then we'll go to Brisbane and meet Febe and Fabian and also, to pick Ben and Lucy up. We'll all go to Canberra to pick Zac up afterwards and maybe to New Zealand to pick Mason up. Finally after everyone's together, we'll all hop on to the cheapest flight back to Bali. Since we will all be graduates of AIS by then, we'll have to gatecrash AIS with the help of the friendly Security Guard who has always loved us. We'll throw a massive reunion party and call all the kids down(everyone'll have to find their own way to get back). Oh and lets not forget to trash John's office. Sorry John, you made school hell for us, so...

Sounds like a good plan? I think so.

Here comes a feeling you tought you'd forget-

2010-07-20T16:03:00.004+08:00

My hands're like jelly, my stomache's like a butterfly park and my heart's in a whirlwind.

MELT.....

Hahaha. Wtf is wrong with you Fuz, you're such an idiot.

P.s. Evelyn, Nadia, Yuuki, Zhe- I FOUND LUCY AND BEN BIRGAN! YES I AM AWESOME LIKE THAT! HAH.

If you get what you want but not what you need

2010-07-18T23:47:00.004+08:00

1. Its 1am on a Monday morning and I can't sleep.
2. I even find it hard to blink.
3. It sucks that I can't freaking zzz already.
4. No dumbass, I don't have insomnia.
5. It sucks to know that you dont know that I know what you did.
5. No asswipe, I'm not talking about you-know-who.
6. No wait you dont know who, since I don't either.
7. What?
8. What am I on about?
9. What, am I on drugs or something?
10. Omg I'm bipolar.
11. Anytoots-
12. I'm not looking forward to school.
13. School, you suck the life out of me.
14. I can't think.
15. This sucks.
16. School sucks.
17. You suck.

Since

2010-07-18T13:16:00.003+08:00

(Dad orders everything on the menu- from deep fried mushrooms to ginourmous burgers to cheesy quesadillas)

Me: "Daddy, you're gonna make me grow so fat!"
Dad: "Good."
Me: "What?!"
Dad: "That's what I was hoping for."
Me: "WHY WOULD YOU WANT YOUR DAUGHTER TO BE OBESE?"
Dad: "Because no guy will want you if you grow so fat so I dont have to worry about you getting a boyfriend again."

My dad's masterplan- to let me die wrinkly, alone and fat in a dingy apartment with roaches and 20 cats.

EVELY RAJ AND ANNIE STUART, YOUR MAGAZINE IS IN MY HANDS <3

Your bubblegum tongue

2010-07-17T16:13:00.009+08:00

W4L,JYEAH!

We SBs is be cool.

Why is the sky so blue, Fai?

2010-07-15T19:10:00.001+08:00

you-

make me laugh and cry at the same time.
Faved.
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Mjc DSA went alrightt-ish. First impression was so ._. hah, but everything turned out fine. I think. I hope.
Called Fai and Frin afterwards cause i didnt want to wait for stupid boy Amsyar alone in Mj's canteen. Shit i almost got locked in the canteen omg! Hahah, so around 7+ Amsyar AKA Amsy finally finished but Farahin AKA Ain had to go home, so just lepzed with Faizah AKA Izah, Hafiz AKA Matt Heinz and Azmi AKA Mimi-.- Hahahaha. So kecoh, major merepek. I love teasing Izah *knucklepunches Amsy*
From running burgers to naked greentea bottles, that was a great breath of fresh air after a whole day of spazzing about the auditions.
Fingers crossed please!

Im in Tampines now with this idiot, Fai Prata Abuden, we've been bitching for the past 3hours about...tikos and like, uh
stuffs. Hah! Love you beyotchh*knuckle punch and pshhhh*

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends

2010-07-12T21:32:00.005+08:00

YOU TWO TOSSERS.
Hahahahahahahaha.
See, *starts to sing*every little thing, is gonna be alright.

I shall go listen to John Mayer songs and mourn over my about-to-be-dead social life now.
Damn you Os. After I kick your fat butt, I'm going to go back to Bali and spend three days soaking in the Candidasa Resort and Gili Island life with the mates, get sun burnt, an ass-wedgie or two in Waterbom, split my head open during White Water Rafting, go on a weekend sleepover so crazy that I'll need a wheelchair after that and probably get eaten by a shark when I go diving.
I like.

I like time alone.

2010-07-12T21:02:00.010+08:00

I need-

to get rid of uneasy nights.
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Open your eyes a little more, fool-
And realise how much things have changed.

Wednesdaywednesdaywednesdaywednesdaywednesday- PUMPED.

You bring me daydreams, you bring me nightmares.

2010-07-11T18:30:00.005+08:00

My mind's in a pureed turmoil and my stomache's in a knotted mess.
So I need them lemons. Where my lemons at?
...

but we'll be alright, girl.

And I'd give up forever to touch you

2010-07-10T21:36:00.006+08:00

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Friday night, Airport studying with Vic and Tessa, which obviously turned out to be an epic failure of an attempt to do any work.Along came Imran afterwards with his DSLR, which made it an even bigger fail. Oh well, thanks for taking care of meh doodz.I almost fainted and died in the middle of Kembangan. Hah. I want my photos!

Flea Market, Despicable Me and Simpang dinner today with the Bedok gang and the SBs feat Frin and Paige. The flea was way too crowded and I ended up gasping for air and stretching outside with Vic after only 30minutes. Meh, the movie was awesome though. OMAGAH, ANYONE WANTS TO BUY ME ONE OF THEM CUTE LITTLE YELLOW THINGYMAJINGY? HEEHEE.

I have lots of things in my head that's just dying to get out right now. Stress is an understatement.
Stress includes people assuming things, me not being anywhere near prepared for next Wednesday, fights, tiffs, just to name a few.
FML, I need my dose of therapy talk Yuuki.
):

Cause no one's taking me out and nothing's pulling me down.

2010-07-07T21:40:00.006+08:00

Some people change and some just won't
You can't take back the words you wish you'd never said
Promises break and lovers will lie
You hold up your hands and let out a sigh
So smile right before you fall
And lay beside this mess and call it consequence
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You're an ugly mess.

You feel empty.
Out of place, out of love, out of trust, out of lust, out of ideas.
You wish everything would stop moving just so you can breathe for a few seconds.
You wish for moments to be replayed, over and over again.
You wish that everyone would just stfu and think before they act. Before its too late.

Haha, _l_ this shit. I'm through with people who list lying as one of their favourite pastimes..
x

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.

2010-07-07T19:51:00.008+08:00

Dammit, I broke my year-long record of not accidentally hurting myself since I just sliced my middle finger open(is that a sign to stop swearing or something?) with a razor that was placed randomly on my table for no damn reason. As if. Why am I so dumb?

Fate is a cold-hearted whore.

2010-07-06T21:17:00.011+08:00

Happy birthday Frino and Isya too!
Spent most of Sunday accompanying my momma and dadda(man, if they read this, they'll choke me to death for being so annoying), sent them to the airport and then met up with Fai, Vic, Frin,Aqida, Isya, Fatin and two of their bros to celebrate Frin's birthday! Love you Frin, and Isya! Haha.
Late night movie with Vic afterwards, Eclipse is awhzum-
"Let's face it, I'm hotter than you."
HAHA I LOVE YOU JACOB BLACK, WHY IS YOUR NECK SO SHORT AND YOUR NOSE SO SQUISHED?

Monday,impulse-shopped with Vic before we went to meet the rest for the Band Concert @ Esplanade. We're so noisy. Hahah.
The sun'll come out tomorrow so you betcha millionbucks ass that tomorrow will come, bitch. HAH.
Then went to Marina for a late dinner/snack meal with Vic, Fai, Frin and ShuRui.
Came home at 11+pm and I was locked out of the hostel. As usual. FML.
So after almost an hour of shouting/screaming/banging/complaints/nags, the maid finally decided that she had had enough of my whining and torturous loud-hailer voice and I decided that I couldn't sleep alone after my sister's ditching. Thankfully, Bernadus makes for a good bedtime story-teller. His weird experiences and all, though I didn't have to know in details dude.

I should've stayed home and slept the whole of today away. What a waste.
Oh and after a few days of not checking my blogger/formspring, my formspring has lost its sanity. I mean like, I logged on to formspring twice today, only to find out that my name changed from Faustina Sari Setiawan to Nicole Lim to Justin. Oh and I'm apparently from KC now._.

K weird, x.

Es el Major

2010-07-03T12:06:00.005+08:00

School days have been great, IRs infinitely tiring and after school moments have been way beyond epic. Fai and Vic are my fave comedians fo life. Hahaha.
This weekend shall be pretty dull, or will it?*suggestive wink*

Oh and on Thursday during recess;

Mdm Khoo(to Fai): You hem your skirt ah! No wonder so short!
Fai: But, Mdm Khoo!!!!!!!! I'm a big girl now! This pinafore's vintage! It's from 2007! You can't do anything to it. It's kinda fragile.

(Vic ses Mdm Khoo scolding Fai and hugs me super tightly and doesn't want to let go so that Mdm Khoo doesnt see her skirt)
Mdm Khoo: LES! LES LES LES LES LES!!!!!!
Tessa: HAHA! Wth Mdm Khoo!
Mdm Khoo: What!!! Correct what!!! L-E-S! LESSS! They les right, Tessa! Les! Les les les!
Me: (whispers to Vic) Vic! Let go of me! Mdm Khoo thinks we're lesb and those group of Sec ones also think we lesbo too, vic!!
Vic: (whimpers like a puppy)
Mdm Khoo: (while pulling Vic away from me) Come Victoria I bring you somewhere.
Me and Vic: Go where??
Mdm Khoo: Prison.
(All of us had our ._. faces on)

After godknowshowlong, Me, Fai and Tessa went to find Mdm Khoo in the G.O.
Tessa: (doubtfully) Mdm Khoo, where's Vic?
Mdm Khoo:(Fierce)In prison.
Me, Tessa & Fai: Hahaaha! Where is sheeeee?? ):
Mdm Khoo: She's in a room. Why? You all her bestfriends want to pick her up is it?
Fai: YEA! We miss her!
Mdm Khoo: Haha! Okay wait ah, I bring her out.

Hahahaha kay, I got some parts from Fai's lj and added some parts she didn't hear/forgot.
FYI, Vic has like, the shortest skirt in school.
So Mdm Khoo "loves" her. LURVES her to the max. Haha,
-

I lol-ed.
I shall see you two soonz.

Stfu.

2010-06-30T21:02:00.001+08:00

"Fuz, let me lick your eyeballs!"
-Rachel Soh Wen Yun
"Your head is filled with air but Vic's head is filled with vacuum"
-Nurul Aqilah Bte Minhaj
"Im not talking to you until you dye your hair back to brown Fai, Ugh! *bitchy eyeroll* "
-Victoria Vera Foo Yi

My friends are spazz funny and I like it that way.

Water wings

2010-06-29T16:10:00.006+08:00

Have a blast in Bali you three! While I rot here in the heat and rain of Singapore :/
Five years have flown by way too fast and I've been missing my Nadster more and more.
I CANT BELIEVE I'LL BE MSSING OUT ON THE REUNION AFTER TOO LONG! Sigh, what I'd give to be in Bali right now, but I'll be with you in spirit babes. And there's always December and our future island/diving trip.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed, my prayers shouted, my coins in the wishing well and my wishes on the shooting stars that December will happen. December has to happen.
Love yous x
-

Apart from that,

Love is a headfuck

Make us, this city's contagious.

2010-06-28T22:47:00.006+08:00

We put your first day of school to shame.

Jyeah! Marina Bay Sands is too good to be true.
Yesterday, I saw the whole of Singapore right before my very eyes.

Sweet sins, Bitter lies

2010-06-28T11:47:00.002+08:00

And so I'm back from a week of no-phones, no-internet getaway to Shang Hai.
No people, I did not die. Honest. I'm alive and well.
The trip was mighty fine but a week had come and gone far too fast. I miss Bali already, and there's nothing I can do but to sit and wait for November.

Oh well, now that I'm back in Singapore and back to the books, I have never been so tired in my life. The fact that I'll be staying in a hotel room with the view of the Singapore River+Esplanade for this whole week slightly compensates the fact that I'll have to survive the next vicious months of school. Just, slightly.

OH YES, and I've finally put my formspring up. I created it like 2 months ago cuz of Fai's request but I have completely forgotten my username and password. Ikr, bimbo...K shaddap):
So go ahead and ask me anything, poopsies!

ZenBenMenDen

2010-06-19T10:13:00.013+08:00

I still love going over to Eve's house. And I did exactly that two days ago with Bernadus, Agio and Reno. The air was very cold, like temperate-climate cold. And Bukit was amazing, despite the many cows crossing over and polluting the road. Not to mention one of them wanted to kill me....
Then ate Sushi at KO with Eve and Steph for dinner, pictures coming soon babes!

I was practically sweating in Centro the whole of yesterday with Eve and Annie, guhhjez girls. They did some photoshoot thingy for a magazine and I was dragged there by Eve. I made new friends and even helped them. ALOT. Hahaha. Eve you friggin sucka, this stays between us three eh. Haha.
I swear to goodness, Kuta is probably like 40degrees and all we wanted to do was to soak ourselves in the cool waters of Kuta Beach, but nooo my period had to come. Sorry, TMI. Dinner at Flapjacks afterwards and slacked around at my place.

Leaving for ShangHai tomorrow ): I'm gonna cry.
-

(edit)

GOODBYE ZEN NAKAMURA
While Hong Kong is basking in your craziness and hyperness and loud-hailer voice, Bali shall miss you a little too much. ):

No money, no honey.

2010-06-17T12:28:00.011+08:00

I FINALLY HAD MY LONG-AWAITED CANAI YESTERDAY (Y) Thankyou Eve, Neta, Jess and Zen.
They ponned the rest of school and chilled with me. Hahah aww. My stomach was killing me after that and all I wanted to do was to puke my lungs out, so we went to CK for the sofa until school was over to join the bandies.
My cute little Santiago had his brain contaminated and can now tell me every single detail of American Pie 1-8(or whatever the latest movie is) So depressing, Vitto what did you do to your brothar ): Sam even managed to convince him that the correction fluid that my baby cousin smeared all over my legs is actually cum. Wow. Thanks Ryan and Sam.
Headed to some stuffy studio and watched them rehearse for their RI performance. I was supposed to go to Centro with the rest afterwards, but gave that a miss since I was feeling like shit and felt a fever coming.
Then this retard, Bernadus Andrien Chandrea, called me at 130AM to tell me something that could've waited. I was having a fever and I was having the hardest time of my life trying to fall back into sleep. Thanks, you tard. Haha.

Okay, Eve's crib today with Bernie and whoever-else to chill and eat dinner.
Bukit, here I come(L)

She said lets change our luck, this night is all we've got.

2010-06-15T20:07:00.010+08:00

I NEED A BEACH/BUKIT BREAK FROM EVERYTHING.

Anyone?

And you'll sing to me sweet til then

2010-06-14T14:38:00.022+08:00

My weekend went pretty great. Eve came over on Friday. We just chilled at my place for the whole day- ordering in food from Gabah, h2h talks, swam and chilled at the pool. I love my new Fujifilm waterproof camera and I've missed our one-on-one times, bby gurl.
-

Spent most of Saturday panicking over what to wear,we literally had nothing formal to wear. Hahah. Then went to Ghandi's Graduation Party. It was pretty cool actually, although I expected more people to come. Mostly just chilled and danced/moshed around with Eve, Zhe, Annie, Krishna, Pradnya, Ami and got introduced to the rest. Thanks for sticking up for me, Ami and Zhe(Y). Oh and I swear they have the coolest, most vulgar Lit teacher. Ever. I mean, he even began his speech with "Hi, my name is Mr.Ben. *pause* These fucking lights are so bright , I cant see shit" and ended it with "FREEEEE BOOOOOZE, FOR ALL YA FCKERS!". And then there was-

Zhe: "KRISHNAAA!"
Mr.Ben: "SHANG ZHE, SHUT THE FUCK UP!"
Never in a million years will our school ever have free booze and a 200K Cigar for everybody to share AND funny awards like "The Sexiest Beast Award" or "The Most Voluptuous Person Award"._.
Went home past my designated time, Evelyn slept over. I had to take care of this wasted girl while I had to slap myself sober too. So it was alright overall, I guess?
-

Sunday, Callista came over in the morning. Then we went to Feyloon where we met Stephanie and Marlies for awhile. They had to take off while I had to go for some family lunch thing. Our "lunch" lasted for 7 hours, swear. Hahah. But I had my big cousins there. Especially the wild one- the one who always looked after me since I was a baby, yet almost drowned me when I was 5, the one who gave me ideas of sneaking out and the one who told me to not smoke anymore(I dont btw) while he had like 6 packets of cigarettes under his car seat. So just caught up with them, Teresa slept over last night and then today I caught up with my homework and ANTM-.-

Uh huh.
Astalavista people.

Slow dancing in a burning room

2010-06-10T10:27:00.008+08:00

Awww. Thankyou Faizah Prata Abdan, Victoria FooYi, Shermaine Tan, Tessa Tan, Farahin Bronze Razak and Yaisyah Yasin for seeing me off at the airport yesterday. Love you girls. Aw especiallly Fai and Vic, who didn't want to let go off me when I wanted to enter immigration until the security guards were staring at us with their dao faces. Its not like I'm dying you know. Haha.

Love you guys x

If there's one thing I hate about going back to Bali, its going through the immigration once you reach the Bali Airport.
I was so tired and sleepy and the place was so stuffy, the only thing I wanted to do was to get out of the darned checkpoint thing and hug my parents. But noo, two assholes who have been complaining about the long queue decided to cut infront of me. Thankfully, Clara was there, and two asswipes cut infront of her too. So we purposely went up to them and I was practically swearing my head off. Hahah, oops.

What made it worse was some perve-faced jerks decided to try sweetalk us, god I wanted to kick their balls. I honestly dont know how some women can degrade themselves to falling into their traps. Major ew.

Nonetheless, it feels great to be back to home sweet home:)

I'll see you lovelies tomorrow!

Why the unglam pictures?

BECAUSE I MISS OUR SLEEPOVERS, EVELYN RAJ AND FEBE LONG.

Aussie Auzy Ozzy

2010-06-07T21:36:00.009+08:00

BALI IN FOUR (POSSIBLY TWO) MORE DAYS!
High

I miss Jo. I miss Bali. I miss you people. I miss getting high and not realising that we're in the middle of a beach-side cemetery. I miss the shit alcoholic drinks you find in Mini Mart. I miss how overpriced Mini Mart is. I miss Bluefin and Stadium and Centro and Simpang Siur. I miss exploding fireworks in the rain. I miss screaming random songs with you guys in the middle of the road just because we felt like it. I miss Waterbom(OMG CAN WE GO TO WATERBOM?). I miss climbing random balconies and disturbing all the random beer-bellied guests. I miss ringing random doorbells and then running away the second we hear footsteps. God help me, I even miss John.

I NEED MY HOLIDAY. NOW.

Baby, we'll be waterproof.

2010-06-07T20:46:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTORIA FOOYI!
From our big bitchfests to the formation of the exclusive SBs to the times when you and Fai get super annoyed by my constant forgetful/blurness and then the times when we get hell annoyed at Fai's whining and to the times when me and fai get fuck annoyed at your bimbo spazes(Omg we make the most useless team)-
I lav ya, cosine beyotch!
-

1. I finally bought my waterproof camera, hell yea bitch!
2. Bali <3<3<3<3<3
3. Laura Alyssa Yeo, if you're reading this, your girls are here to cheer you up baby.
4. Evelyn Ayu Raj, get dialing. Pronto.
5. Faustina Sari Setiawan needs to lock up her wallet far, far away.

Brake And Release.

2010-06-05T20:44:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNADUS ANDRIEN CHANDRA, YOU SONUVA...GUN.
Heh.
Mini-celebration at home. Obviously, I was the one being bullied, with chocolate sponge cake smothered all over my face and clothes.
Ahh the perks of being a girl. :/

And ofcourse not forgetting-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIDZUAN AZMI, BIGGEST GUNDI ON EARTH.

Oi, cb! Haha.

I'll forever love going spaz with you.

Flea with Fai, Frin, Zee and Maya.

Loud girls. Haha. Talk about bumping into people eh.

Kiss my face, your warm embrace

2010-06-02T15:15:00.004+08:00

Emmanuelle's with Amanda Sng yesterday. Meet them two future rockstars, people.
Youth In Revolt (Y) Michael Cera is too cuuute argh!
Thanks for intro-ing me to Hope babes, currently addicted!

Then Raimah's for some teh peng with Imz. We shall go argue about whether that blinking thing is a star or an airplane soon, you babi. Hahee.

Airplanes. That reminds me, I'm off to find my grandparents in the airport.

Chao people x,
I'm so glad I dont have to pay for Donkey's flight ticket. Haha luzer.

The wonders of webcam

2010-05-31T21:20:00.007+08:00

1. What happens when you're with Kental

2. What happens when Stupid Blue Fish is bored- The Evolution of Faustina's face ):

3. What happens when Stupid Blue Fish messes with my photo- I prettify :)

I LOVE YOU MSN.

Yellow

2010-05-29T22:41:00.005+08:00

"I've been abra-cadabra'd into a Fancy Feasting second-rate sidekick!"

"At least you don't look like a bloated roadside piñata. You really need to go on a diet. "

Haha.

SHREK THE THIRD AND FLEA MARKET! (L)

It was me and you, and the whole town underwater.

2010-05-27T19:32:00.004+08:00

BECAUSE WE SERIOUSLY CBF YOU KNOW, PEOPLE.
:/

nothing

2010-05-26T09:32:00.005+08:00

COME QUICK:

1. Sentosa
2. Shrek 3!
3. New covers
4. Jam sesh
5. Pet farm
6. Flea market
7. Reunion in Singapore with E and Y in July
8. Weekend
9. BALIIIIII<3333

Even the man in the moon disappears somewhere in the stratosphere

2010-05-25T13:41:00.003+08:00

“You don’t know me at all, you never will”.
See that’s a kind of magic. She’s so good at concealing things, hiding, avoiding. I do know her. And I know that she has got so much love in her heart. But the thought of letting it out, showing her cards, scares her to death. I never knew it would be possible to miss someone this much.

Why have i been so quiet and fickle-minded lately!
I miss my bestfriend, Evelyn Ayu where the hell are you?):

On a completely different note,
here's to second chances and forgiveness.
Im glad we pulled through.
:)

Slide.

2010-05-23T02:05:00.004+08:00

Dear June, please come quick.
I greatly miss having sand stuck in between my toes, stuck in between my fingers, stuck in between my sandwiches.
And I seriously need a waterproof/underwater camera. Vitto!
Another round of our Beach-hopping trips when I'm back in Bali please, loves?
-

Like I said, things could only get better.
And it did. More than I expected.
I should stop questioning how did such an overwhelmingly dramatic nightmare turn into such a lovely dream.
I'm going to savour every second :)
I'll give you the phonecalls i promised soon, Y and E, when I make sure everything is 100% the truth.

xx

Fuck my fucking fuckedup life

2010-05-21T10:12:00.004+08:00

The best part about hitting rock bottom is that there’s no where to go but up.

Thankyou for the much-needed help last night yuuki. It meant so much that you were there for me through everything that slapped me cold in the face. What the fuck will I do without you man): (L)
I'll tell you soon, Evelyn love.
Thanks Fai, Bernie and Amsy for yesterday. Good job on the win eh bro.
-

Things can only get better...right?

Can we pretend that airplanes in the nightsky are like shooting stars?

2010-05-20T10:33:00.003+08:00

i could really use a wish right now.

And just when i thought all the bullshit has passed and i'm left alone with nothing but peace and all-smiles and well on my way to concentrating on nothing but the Os;
something new sparks up.
And i hate it when this happens. I hate it when it concerns the two people i care about the most.
Please let this twisted phase go away soon.

To the best

2010-05-17T22:36:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Mummy.

I know I'm nowhere near the Perfect Daughter- always sneaking around, finding faults, never shutting up when I really should, practically digging up my own grave.
Through all the tears and all the frustration I've caused, you never loved me less.
And you should know that I love you more than I show, because you can read me like an open book.
I'm sorry for all the bad things I've done to you, and thankyou for everything you've done for me. Its never enough.
You're the best and I love you:)

xx your crazy freako daughter,
Faustina.

Turn the music up, and we'll whisper

2010-05-17T20:09:00.007+08:00

Umbrella, enjoy our random cover! :)
Friday run with E, then back to her place for a shower and some pineapple rice!
Her nephew is kayuut. Emmanuelle Kristen Chow Hui Nee is a cheetah in disguise.

Saturday was town with Vic. The Last Song is so gooood.
I've found my lifepartner, Vic you can cry more than me._. Love you eh, we shall ignore Fai. Haha.
-
Sunday, went to E's, Karen's and Theresa's confirmation with Vic, Yi Ting and Chermaine.
Congratulations, Kristen. We are now Sari and Kristen and Prataa. Haha.
Pictures are with E/E's sister, didk when I'll get it since E's hiatus-ing her facebook.
-
I'm pretty happy with my results :)
Script checking is way too fun when you're stitting with two weird girls who'll sing random, old school songs with you as if the hall belongs to us.

Best group ever

2010-05-12T21:44:00.002+08:00

I sleep on my textbook so I can learn by diffusion.

Oh, girls just wanna have fun.

2010-05-12T20:18:00.007+08:00

What do you get when you have no school, free internet access and a couple of weirdos?

Its nowhere near perfect because it was way too impromptu.
We were reaaally bored.
So just shush and enjoy! *Smiles*

The most unproductive E-learning Day by far.
I did Chem though. Like half of it. Fine, one-quarter. Okay fine, one question.
Not looking forward to tomorrow at all. Wish me luck for my results peepz!

x

Its hard to get by, just upon a smile.

2010-05-10T11:35:00.008+08:00

It's one of those days when you wake up feeling like a thousand kilometres of crap under ten megametres of bird poo.
You see, the problem with me is I like to hold on to the bitter and temporarily ditch the sweet.

Thinking really fucks me up.

I don't say it much and I don't express it much either, but being away from home makes everything so much harder. I feel like I can explode because of the tiniest things.

I've had enough of all the drama. I'm waving my white flag.

Please, just leave me alone. I don't want anything to do with you and your silly little lies.

I hate the fact that I'm a sucker for sappy movies.

I'm weird and hormonal. But I'm not the only one now, am I, Yuuki?

*wink*

Meet me on the equinox

2010-05-10T10:29:00.003+08:00

Happy Freaking 17, kittykat Bitch!
Lobes you foreverr:)
Never a dull meowing day with you around you know, hehe. Pet farm soon!
x

Even if the sky is falling down.

2010-05-06T21:23:00.006+08:00

Marina Barrage and Esplanade on Monday with Fai, Frin and Aqida.
Bitchfest(!), Bluff and ohgod, weird toilet incident!
Let's just say I couldn't sleep that night. Haha.
-

Of all the hip places to go, all the cool things to do-
we decided to hit the zoo on Tuesday.
Love you, two clinical retards for life!
-

Fai's crib yesterday with Frino.
The Olsens ft. Meme ft. my new bestfriend, Ayat, Fai's cute little brother.
Caught Frin picking her nose on webcam so we replayed it over and over and over again.
HAHAHAHAHA. I haven't laughed so hard in aeons!
Why are we so weird?
-

Today was Starbucks with Tessa, Rachel, Nat and Paige. Oh god, riot.
Came home to World War 3.

One of our ex-housemates Andy, who got kicked out by the Aunty cuz he apparently back-talked her(?), came back to take his books. And our guardian being the bitch that she is-

(Dining room with everybody else eating, and Josh, our guardian's cute little tiny grandson, innocently staring at us the whole time)

Everyone: "OMGG! Andyyyy whatsup!"
Andy: "He-"
Guardian: "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?"
Andy: "Uh, taking my books"
G:"FASTER TAKE AND LEAVE!"
A:"Wait!"
G:"FASTER I'M GOING TO CALL THE POLICE!"
A:"CALL AH! CALL AH!"*slams the door mega hard*
G:"SHEN JING PING(CRAZY)!!"
A:"YOUUU SHEN JING PING AH!!!"
Us: "Pffff-"*contains laughter*
G: "GET LOST NOWWWW!! THIS IS MY HOUSEEE!!!!"
Josh: *who has been quietly staring at us the whole time sings in his little cute voice* "This is my house! This is my houuuuuse!"
Us: "BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
G: "WAH! SHADDAP YOU ALL! THINK SO FUNNY ISIT? THINK YOU ALL ALWAYS RIGHT IS IT?"
*contains laughter*
Josh: *sees us laughing and decides to adorably join along* "Hohohohohoho!"
Us: "OMG HAHAHAHAHA CAN'T TAKE IT HAHAHA!"
G: "ALL OF YOU!! I'M CALLING UNCLE AH! DONT SHOW ATTITUDE!!!!!*slams the door extra mega hard*

Omg I can't take staying here longer.
Hahah never a dull day though, I can give it that.

x

Funny;

2010-05-02T18:07:00.003+08:00

FINALLY, BABY.

My eyes are nearly bloodshot from a whole day of staring at the computer screen.
-

“Some days are disasters, that you wish could just end.
Other days are bastards, just like a bad boyfriend.
But it makes me feel much worse than this,
to see your face marked with a frown.
I’m not telling you to smile, but don’t be down.

Don’t be down my friend, don’t do your wrist any harm.
You don’t belong on a funny farm.
And I’d rather see you in a party dress, than in a hospital gown.
I’m not telling you to smile, but don’t be down.”

- Pandora

Picking up pace, losing control.

2010-05-01T21:45:00.008+08:00

A tad bit belated!

Happy Birthday Farah!
Hehe, its been awesome knowing you and thanks for having us for your birthday, and I hope you loved the gift! Stay freaking awesome and pretty:)
x

Happy Birthday, Bwoop!
Alrightt, I'll admit even though its past your birthday, you're still awesome:)
Now stop spamming my MSN while I'm trying to finish this post. Haha naww, aren't I the sweetest;) Miss you, you know!
x
-

Love you two SBs!
Thanks for today! Hahaha we is crazy.
Especially in Billy Bombers.
Omg we live up to our names, bitchaz.
Love you two!

You're still the greatest.

Thanks Yuuki, for making me tear like fuck over thep hone. I hate it when you do that. Haha.

Thanks for listening to all my thoughts. And yes you're right, this is family right here. Nothing, and I mean nothing, can break us all. You're my brotha from anotha motha baby. And soul sister, call us tomorrow night k! It'll make my week.

Love you two, to teenyweeny pieces and microscopic bits.

32 and invincible

2010-04-23T17:53:00.004+08:00

"You, me, the seconds that pass in silence. We're all stacking bricks one on top of the other and building an invisible castle. And no, I won't invite you in because that asks for too much and you know- magicians lose their magic when you know the secrets behind the tricks."

I've been building up an invisible wall. My own defence.
You and I both knew from the beginning that nothing good will come out of this.
You and I both know that I'm too afraid to be moved, let alone a free fall.
There's still a missing piece of puzzle, and you're not the answer.
You never were.

Like a virgin, you're madonna.

2010-04-23T17:14:00.007+08:00

(Chem IR- Teacher sux donkeyballs)

F(me): "Omg, what's her freaking problem!"
YiYun: "You know..menopausal stuffs."
Nam: "Wah. Menopause so long ah? More like MenoSTOP."
*both of us breaks out laughing*

(10 minutes into the lesson)
Y: "Ohh! I just got your menostop joke!"

Hahaha.

If you want a change of luck

2010-04-22T12:50:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love. One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you." Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

- Scarlett Anais Bauwens, aren't you just the sweetestttttt!!<3

FYEAHSIXTEEN

2010-04-20T21:45:00.012+08:00

Overdued post on my birthday, I've been a busybee with all the exams and the other major crapolas.
Thanks y'all, for coming to my Birthday and making it an awesomatastic one!:)
Laura and Rach for being hilarious MCs, Bernie for the guitar solo and for actually doing your dare, Matt, Imz and Zee for Love Drunk, Tes for the love song(hehe), Nat for slapping my arse(Haha), Vic for smelling my brother's shoe(HAHAHA), Rach for giving me a wet and slobbery birthday kiss(-.-)
Love you all who came and made it so power.
Hahaha, thanks for deflating half of the balloons in the room and getting high on Helium, people.
You guys are awesome <3
And my parents were cooler than usual.
Especially my dad. When Rach dared me to give Ara a lap dance, he was there cheering and jeering me on.
NOT the reaction I was expecting......

Still can't believe I'm SEEXTAYN*grins*

And thanks E and Y btw, for being the first two to wish me a happy birthday over the phone all the way from Bali and Aus!
Naww, you guys know just what to say to make me cry.
:)

x

Panic at the-

2010-04-16T13:41:00.001+08:00

Guess who's the birthday girl tomorrow?
:)

Inside jokes.

2010-04-16T10:28:00.001+08:00

I MISS.

hate this part

2010-04-13T09:39:00.004+08:00

Fuck this.

Why does it always have to happen?

The pretty reckless

2010-04-08T21:10:00.006+08:00

"MY BB WAS LIKE HORNY THE WHOLE NIGHT. FUCK. BEEPING HERE AND THERE, SO I SLEPT AT 12. "
-Evelyn Ayu Raj;
Best friend, Soul Sister and a complete firetrucking idiot.

-
Sports Day wasn't as bad as what I expected it to be.
Credits to Annabella Ang for the pink glitter glued to my face:)
I now have a tanline on my cheek in the shape of a heart._.
Drama came in first(from the bottom, power Ameera)! Hahaha.
Town with Vic and Tes afterwards, Cherry Bomb babes!

Seeya lates x

If you like it then you shoulda put a _l_ on it

2010-04-07T21:23:00.005+08:00

SPORTS DAY TOMORROW.
MALAS LIKE FAG.

x

Flying frenzy

2010-04-06T14:59:00.003+08:00

YOU ARE SO PISSIFYING.
-

Love her<3

On a side note, YES FAI-
Strawberry milk comes from pink cows and chocolate milk comes from brown cows...

Caught When In Rome yesterday with Fai and Vic, my party-planner GALZ. Haha.
I honestly cant wait to embrace sixteendom.

X

Frenemies.

2010-04-05T13:17:00.003+08:00

Honestly though, how oblivious and stupid and gullible do you think I am?

I don't really know what you're trying to do here. But this, whatever this is, is something completely out of line in a stupid and childish way.
Please stop acting dumb, it's not working.
I can't even look at your face without cringing a little.
Call me a bitch. Whatever. Don't care.
The only reason the whole damn world knows is because you tell them.
Don't even think about complaining about me to everyone when you can't even pluck up the courage to talk to me yourself. I don't get why people use others as their mouthpiece.

And btw, no, the previous post was not about any of you.
I've got many things in my mind and you're only a minute part of my problems because I'm too sick and tired of the same shennanigans over and over again.
Enough is enough.

Just keep me where the light is

2010-04-05T11:35:00.005+08:00

(Credits to Fai, my camera is broken!)

Me, my itchy hands and my stupid mouth.

Just for the record,
What's wrong with me is you.
-

Summer stolen, fallen places.

I DONT GIVE A FUCK.

2010-04-03T21:35:00.005+08:00

Town for the past few days, tomorrow again.

Awesome time with Faizah, Frin adn Taufiq yesterday.

And freaking cool time with Victoria Vera Foo Yi today.

You're my life-saver Vic! Haha.

Remember Me is freaking dope- me and Vic were literally hugging and crying with each other in the cinema.

Omg, talk about weirdos-.-

FUCK _ _ _ _ _ ,

SWEAR YOU CAN GO AND DIE STUPID DICKLESS BASTARD.
WHERE THE FUCK IS YOUR MANNERS OMG.

CAN YOU LIKE NOT SPURT OUT VULGARITIES AND EXPECT ME TO APOLOGISE TO YOU JUST BECAUSE I DONT RESPOND AND EXPECT ME TO BE FINE WITH IT?

I HAVE REASONS WHY I DONT TALK TO YOU ON MSN.

FREAK OFF YOU STUPID STALKER _l_

Never did i ever-

2010-03-31T15:58:00.002+08:00

People change, they really do. But i guess in the end, it all comes down to you being comfortable in your own skin.
Appreciate the ones who accept you unconditionally. Who acknowledges the fact that you do need time and space to think and find out who you are and yet are able to take you in again.
Yea, shit happens. Life's never laid out or planned the way you want them
to be.
That's why it's nice to know that someone out there will definitely stand by your side no matter the distance or time. Thanks Eve and Yuki, for being that strong and immobile rock that I can seek support on anytime of the day. It's pathetically hilarious how, for some cursed reason, we'll be in shit always together. Hahah.
So Donkey, you're you. Nobody or nothing can change that, not even if a meteor hits planet earth. And I think you're plain awesome just the way you are(nah here's entertainment for you for English class)
AND-
Nobody messes with my Ephalent except for me, you know:) don't worry, I'll do what I can Silly.
-

OMG IM ACTUALLY STUDYING WITH VIC NOW.

Replay, baby.

2010-03-26T18:25:00.003+08:00

"Because I was 13 and stupid, I didn't see what was coming."
-Laura.

Shit, I'm not 13 but still stupid.
-

I love Fridays with you drama mamas:)

Gamble in desire.

2010-03-24T19:29:00.004+08:00

I want to run free in a meadow of greens and daisies like nothing else in the world matters, paint the white roses rainbow, and dance around under the moonlight with nothing accompanying me but the drips and drops of rain, sing at the top of my lungs in the airport elevator, soak all my white tees in bright ink, walk around town with shimmery gold glitter covering my face, colour my nails neon, I want to wake up in the middle of the night only to find myself in someone's safe embrace, to fall in love all over again. I want to act like the biggest idiot on earth-

Finding ecstasy.

Finally found the most unglam photo of you

2010-03-22T21:38:00.006+08:00

Happy Sweet Sixteen, Yuuki David Tonai!
Thankyou for everything that you've done dude.

Naww, ma boy has turned 16 (;

And don't forget our deal ya, Tiramisu Boy-
Matchmake your little brother Joshua and my baby cousin Jasmine.
It'll be the perfect love story- the two cutest people "accidentally-on-purpose" meet in some romantic-sappy scene, thanks to their two awesome elders(us, duh) and realise that they were childhood friends. They fall in love and get married,
And we'll all be one big happy family.
Tadaaaaa-
Haha, I miss you! Take care and get away from the crazy storm in Perth please,
I still want you in one piece x

I hate when- I bring my jacket and it doesn't rain, but when I don't it rains umbrellas and the air is turning me into a popsicle.

P.S. Got the time? Go to Evelyn's blog and help fight back. Tyvm:) Be strong woman x

Nothing's bigger than love

2010-03-22T20:52:00.002+08:00

Okay, today spelt Epic Failure.
Rushed to school like hell, didn't even look at my nametags and whatnot, and still turned in late with a whole group of people(the bus was late).

*void deck, prefects taking our names down*
Prefect: "Uhh, excuse me, please put on your name tag"
Me: "Oh okay..*takes out nametag, puts on pinafore only to realise that-* Eh..? EH! FRIN! THIS IS YOUR NAMETAG!"
Frin: "Eh! Oh my god!"
*everyone laughs*
Prefect: "Erm, so do you have your own nametag?"
Me: "Waittt I think so, waitt I check! *ransacks my bagpack like fuck and finally found one* OMG YES! But why is it dented? *holds the dented end, then nametag broke into two* SHIT!"
Hui Ling: "Today your best day ah, Fuz."

Put your heart in my hands, you'll be safe here.

2010-03-21T19:27:00.004+08:00

Remember how we laughed
until we cried,
at the most stupid things
like we were so high.
But love was all that we were on.
We belong.

-

My typing efforts have not gone to waste- Goodboy Har! Haha.

Currently addicted to old-school songs.

Currently in Singapore.
Currently missing Bali already.
Currently supposed to do homework.
Currently having a brain fail.
Currently dreading tomorrow.

Butterflies eating up my insides.

You're better than the best;

2010-03-20T10:06:00.006+08:00

I´m lucky just to linger in your eyes
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware,
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Thankyou Evelyn Ayu Raj, Vitto Olavo Kray, Zaneta Imam and Albee Rin for coming over yesterday and making my day.

Thankyou for cheering me up a hell of a lot. And Vitz, thankyou for the pretty Havaianas!

Haha I love you guys!
-

Oh and thanks Bwoop, for ditching the party for awhile to comeover in the middle of the night.

Even though it was only for 15minutes and we found ourselves running around discreetly(is that even humanly possible?) Hahaha sorryy, I owe you something !
(You better tell me if you read this btw, so I know my typing efforts have not gone to waste teehee.)

HOLIDAY'S ENDING, DAMMIT.

So tired of all the drama

2010-03-18T19:40:00.005+08:00

Of course I'll always remember;

I miss our sleepovers in our pretty pink Elmo get-ups.

I miss that time when Nadia's dad would always bring us to Hard Rock and we brought our little Bratz dolls into the water and built sandcastles on top of tiny boogeyboards for them.

Then the security guards will chase us out because you're not allowed to bring sand over the tiled area.

But we didn't care and instead, covered up the whole swimming pool floor with sand and brought chips and tomato from the pool bar.

And we'd sun-tan over those white-brick thingies and come to school the next day, all red and burnt and unable to move- Yuuki, Zhe and Helios would always point and laugh at us. Bloody hos. Haha.

The ignorant bliss of Year 5&6.

Nadia McLeod, you'll always be my number one Aussie girl:)

& Evelyn Ayu Raj, I'll be here for you always, you know that.
-

Well what a hot mess we got ourselves into eh, girls?

I wonder how we'll get through this slimey dingehole this time.

Fade to black inside.

2010-03-18T18:15:00.006+08:00

Hellz yer, I'm back in Bali everybody!

And I just realised something disturbing/disgusting. (Completely out of topic but still. Ew.)

I wanna see you, you, you, you, you and yous.

I'm grounded but I'll find a way, I always do right?:)

& I miss the lips that made me fly;

Just forget about the world;

2010-03-13T12:15:00.004+08:00

The March holidays are here, I'm in Bali once again!

But it doesnt really feel like the holidays. Thanks to me being kinda grounded and I have to fly off to Surabaya tomorrow til Thursday........

Tell me how much this sucks. I can't wait for O's to end.

On a brighter note,

SAY HELLO TO MY NEW SIDEKICK!

Bodo to the maximum.

2010-03-09T19:47:00.011+08:00

I love studying with Faizah Binte Abdan in TeaDot. So productive.
Haha. (No Im not being sarcastic)
Okay, back to the books I go.

x

Liar, liar, pants on fire.

2010-03-09T19:14:00.006+08:00

"We call it love. It feels like love. But the most exhilarating of all human emotions is probably nature’s beautiful way of keeping the human species alive and reproducing.
With an irresistible cocktail of chemicals, our brain entices us to fall in love. We believe we’re choosing a partner. But we may merely be the happy victims of nature’s lovely plan.

The first stage of love is driven by the sex hormones testosterone and oestrogen – in both men and women.
The second stage involves three main neurotransmitters.

1.Adrenaline. The initial stages of falling for someone activates your stress response, increasing your blood levels of adrenalin and cortisol. This has the charming effect that when you unexpectedly bump into your new love, you start to sweat, your heart races and your mouth goes dry.
2.Dopamine. This chemical stimulates ‘desire and reward’ by triggering an intense rush of pleasure. It has the same effect on the brain as taking cocaine! Fisher suggests “couples often show the signs of surging dopamine: increased energy, less need for sleep or food, focused attention and exquisite delight in smallest details of this novel relationship” .
3.Serotonin. One of love's most important chemicals that may explain why when you’re falling in love, your new lover keeps popping into your thoughts. "

For those of you who didn't pay attention in Ms.Izrina's class and missed out BIG TIME. Its true girls, we're doomed. Because what we thought was the only one, unexplainable, silly, impulsive yet beautiful thing-

LOVE REALLY IS JUST A CHEMICAL REACTION.

-dies.

He said, she said.

2010-03-07T15:27:00.002+08:00

I'm sick of everyone expecting me to be like this and like that and like saywhut.
I'm sick of people telling me how I was, how I am, how I will be.
I'm sick of you telling me how you want me to be.
For once, for now and, fuck yeah, for always-
let me just be comfortable in my own skin.

For the last goddarned time, I'm sorry that I don't live to please others.

Take care of the sense, and the sounds will take care of themselves.

2010-03-07T13:41:00.006+08:00

Caught Alice In Wonderland with these people!

I do not have a weird laugh and I did not cry when Alice left Wonderland. Comprende?
HAHA.
Loud busride(Zihan Ruslan's fault) and ICC afterwards.
Crazy, epic times like these. I loike.
Thanks for the day guys(:

x

Table for Two

2010-03-05T19:36:00.006+08:00

Thursday night with Zee, Farah, Atika and Matt, reliving our deprived childhood once again.
The swings were missing though. Haha.
Credits to Farah for the pic-chaz(:
-

LOVE MY SBs FL- SBs FTW, BODO!
Ernie's missing ):
Tes, you're my Alpha and I'm your Beta.(don't deny Tes)
Fai, you're my cosine tween.
Vic, you're my sine bimbo.
Ernie, you're my tangent vainpot.
HEHE.

-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMMANUELLE CHOW HUI NEE♥
Thanks for everythingg E.- from accompanying me at the sickbay, for rolling your eyes at me everytime I make a stupid joke, for bitching with me, for Starbucks!(where's your E. twin ah?*ehem*), for eh-vuh-ree-thang. Lav you x
-

I heart dramaaa, muuunz.
And I heart post-drama Videoworld bitchfest seshes, all the more. Heheh.

HOORAY FOR LONG PICTURE POSTS.

What's it to you?

2010-03-05T09:04:00.001+08:00

LIFE, YOU'RE SO MAJORLY CRAPOLA.

I WANT A FREAKING BREAK PLEASE,

NOW WOULD BE A GOOD TIME.

Summer bandits of '69

2010-03-02T20:32:00.004+08:00

Before you assume shit, this doesn't apply to a certain someone.
Know what? Tell the whole fucking world what you want.
I shall stop giving a fuck.
I'm tougher than you think you know :)
-

Oh yes, my bangs.
"Your hair, scissors and a mirror often results in tears."
So in the midst of everybody's point-and-laugh-POINT-AND-LAUGH-AT-FUZ'S-FRINGE moment this morning, Rachel suddenly shouted "EH, tomorrow got photo taking!"

My last class picture in Tanjong Katong Girls' School and it'll be me looking like Dora the Explorer with a jaggered fringe. Great.
x

That thing you do

2010-03-01T18:39:00.010+08:00

"And I learned what is obvious to a child. That life is simply a collection of little lives, each lived one day at a time. That each day should be spent finding beauty in flowers and poetry and talking to animals. That a day spent with dreaming and sunsets and refreshing breezes cannot be bettered. But most of all, I learned that life is about sitting on benches next to ancient creeks with my hand on her knee and sometimes, on good days, for falling in love." -NS.

WORLD, I NEVER KNEW SO MUCH OF YOU KNOWS MY BLOG.
HARLEY BROWN IF YOU'RE READING THIS WHICH I KNOW YOU WILL- HI, STALKER.(haha)
MUM/AUNT IF YOU'RE READING THIS, ITS FREAKING ME OUT.
DEBI IF YOU'RE READING THIS, GET LOST.
NETA,EVELYN AND VITTO IF YOU'RE READING THIS- I MISS YOU.
RIDZUAN AZMI IF YOU'RE READING THIS, WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?
BERNADUS AND POKAI IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I JUST WANT TO SAY IT FOR THE GAZIBILLIONTH TIME- YOU GUYS SUCK ARSE:D

x

Tiedye trivia

2010-02-28T14:13:00.007+08:00

Pictures from yesterday's trip to Sentosa!

-

Rachel: *sings at the top of her lungs, with her highest possible break-windows kinda voice*"Laaalaaaa laaaaaaaa"
Whole class: "Omg shut up la Rach!"
*birds outside starts chirping and flying away*
Fuz: "OMG RACH SHUSH. LOOK, ALL THE BIRDS MIGRATING ALREADY!"

Hahaha. So much for choir.
-

I think that I have the best mum in the whole entire world. I swear.
Thankyou for everything mum, love you;
And I'm a thousand times sorry.

Today will be boring as hell. Off to the Supermarket to get food supplies.
x

Inside jokes and other folks(...)

2010-02-27T22:55:00.004+08:00

(idk why only one picture showed yesterday)
I just learnt how to print screen and I'm going bonkerz.

HAHAHAHAHA. Inside joke.
I CANT TAKE IT, I MISS BALI.
I MISS ZANETA IMAM.
-

Happy birthday Dania Purnama Ernie♥
So shingz your fever had to come today so you couldn't come to Sentosa with me and Fai ):

Proper post soon when I get today's photos from Faizah Prata Abdannn.

Just a second ago, I became happy. HAHA.
Shut up Faustina.
Bye.

Fling, my hind foot.

2010-02-23T22:28:00.004+08:00

Miss you my loverrr(hehe).

Today, I learnt that a certain someone who kept on denying something real and said it was 'just a fucking fling' got together with the girl. Hahaha.
Whatever Faustina says comes true almost all the time you know *wink*
-

Monday, school was tense and shit.
Met Imran at ICC after school. Awhzum talking to you dood!
And then at night conference called with Evelyn and Yuuki til 1am. Three different countries, how coolizzat! Haha, nothing in the world beats talking to them

Today was kinda crap. Stayed at home almost the entire day cause I'm down with fever again.
PoKai accompanied me to the clinic(but I bribed him with food).
I'm talking to Bwoop now:) And Yuuki just sent me an emergency text.
So I shall best be off to give him an emergency call.

Goodnight world.
X

Tastes like you, only sweeter.

2010-02-21T15:29:00.005+08:00

Prove that boys break girls' innocent hearts:

HAHAHAHA SO CUTE THOUGH, SWEAR. Watch the part at the end :)

I'm down with the worst flu ever and I'm blowing my brains out as I speak.

Slept at 2am talking to the Bintang-singlet wearing Aussie, Bwoop. Hahaha, yes you HB(:

And I teared again after getting Yuuki's text.

Almost 16years down the road, I still hate goodbyes.

Don't wanna go to school tomorrow. You know why.

I miss these dudes. Especially LuLu and Yuukz):

Why does everyone have to leave for Perthhh and when is it finally my turn to gooo?

Awesome

2010-02-20T23:43:00.001+08:00

Even though it was just for 15minutes,
talking to Robbie, Eve, Harry and Yuuki made me a gazibillion times better. (:
LVOE YOU GUYS TTM!